Venting.

I don't know how to feel about everything. I am so afraid of the way things are going to turn out in a year. Where will I be? Who will I be with? Who's going to be by my side? I am sitting in my dorm with my roommates and I really like them, honestly I do not know how college would be without them.

I stopped writing this and it is now Monday the 30th and I am sitting in Philosophy and I do not know what to do. My professor is a bit boring but says a few interesting things.

"Minds experience emotion, sensation and will."

Thats literally what he just said. I'm struggling with things about myself. I do not know what I want. I've been letting myself down a bit too much. I honestly can't wait for the summer, I'm going to get a job and work with my mother. I want to get away from everything I guess. It's hard to have the pressure to be perfect but I want to be perfect, to myself of course. But I guess we are our own worst enemy.